Another Sad Story

This story is about a relative of mine. I saw her one time when she was a little girl. She lived in Texas and she was my second cousin. Sunday an Aunt called and told us she had died of an infection and pneumonia. But is doesn't end there. The reason she lost her life is because she got an infection from having a stomach by-pass. Once again, because society places upon women the burden of being thin we have lost one more lovely woman to this tragedy. I don't know the particulars but I am sure she felt the pressure from someone in her life or society to be thin. I realize there are serious health risk patients that need something to this effect, but we are loosing what is right and important in the world. Pressure, pressure, be thin, be thin!...I want to just smack the next person who so kindly says that someone is overweight...don't they realize not only do we know THAT, but that constantly placing the burden of telling us constantly just exacerbates the situation. I have had little children say to me...your fat! I have responded them if their mother doesn't say something...well you are rude....and a nasty little child. Yes mom gets mad but where did the child learn their comment from? Hmmmm..I wonder. Don't pity someone who has a weight problem...I more than likely dress better than others, spend more time looking and acting like a lady and I certainly have better manners....

Okay...enough standing on the soap box. Had to do it! LOL

Looks like rain!

Today it finally looks like rain. They are calling for it and we desperately need the rain. It is so dry in our area. We have had a few 105 degree days and the rest have been up in the 90's. Only a few in the 80's. The heat is hard on me and I have never done well with it. I crave the cool nights of fall.

I am dealing with so much swelling in my legs, ankles, and feet. I need to put my legs up more since my surgery...but who has time. I try to when I knit but I don't knit all that long each day. I try to drink more water and that helps some but ....well....loosing weight I guess will help. I am taking each progress a little at a time and doing the best I can. Tough running a house all on your own....but you deal with the hand dealt...right?

The weekend has gone by so fast like every weekend does. I never seem to get all the things I want to accomplish.....not enough hours in the day. I have finished some knitting projects, but I really want to begin quilting again. I haven't done much because of my studies. I have purchased fabric for several quilts and I have washed the fabric. Now I just need to press all of the fabric and cut out the pieces. I will have to clean the house faster to get to my projects. LOL

I am headed to visit my mother today. A little more knitting time there. Mom always fixes a great lunch and we have a good time talking.

Until later.....

It's Too Hot!

I don't know how others feel about our hot weather here on the East but I can't stand it! I have always lived in the basic area within a 50 mile radius....but I still don't tolerate the heat well. It's the humidity that is awful...okay hot is hot....not matter with humidity or not. All I want to do is lay in front of the fan and turn down the air conditioning until icicles form...okay not that much but I am dying with the heat......yucky.....yucky!

On a happier note I just finished a scarf for a swap friend. I need to get her package off next week. It will travel to Italy. She sent my package already and I am behind. Well not really behind. We have until the end of the month, I am still okay.

Quilting ....

Now that I have finished my degree I am getting out the sewing machine and going through my fabrics and working on one of my favorite hobbies. I love to quilt. I have not done much of it for so many years because it took so much time. Quilts are much bigger projects than my sock knitting. So...I have picked the fabrics for a quilt and today I am pre-washing them and cutting out the quilt later today. It was so much fun going through the fabrics and picking out what would work together...this is so restful for me. I go to my happy place with my fabrics and yarn. I could sit in the middle of them and never move .....just touching and matching and yes....you all that love fibers...smelling them and rubbing them on your face! Admit it...you all do it...LOL...so I am off to launder my fabrics and will knit while I wait for them to wash....oh what a happy day I have created for myself.....picture me with a smile on my face with scissors in my hand...ahhhhhh

Oh No...I sounded so desparate.....

The other day I sounded so awful in my blog...I really was down. My situation does exist but no I don't sit around grieving over it. Just makes me sad at times.

The heat is unbearable for the last two days. Will head home in a few minutes and I am not going out after I get home. I don't do well with the heat and feel ill at times with it and the humidity. You can bundle up and get warm when it is cold, but you can't take enough clothes off when you are hot! This too shall pass I am sure!

Time...it's not enough

I sit and worry and wonder....I can't seem to get things done. I want a relationship with someone that I have fallen so deeply in love with and yet...it doesn't seem to happen. I pray daily for him to ask me out...or just come visit. I have invited and he always has an excuse. Am I so naive that I don't see that he likes me but not to date. I am lonely and I hate this lonely feeling. I wonder on a daily basis how so many of my friends go through divorces and within a very short period of time they either have a relationship or are married again......and here I sit alone. I have encouraged them and I have sat and listened to their endless unhappy stories. Then I experience the abandonment of their friendship because they are too busy with their "new Love"....I live in a sadness that I can't even describe. When will my turn come? Why are my prayers not answered? I only want to find love and give love...and yet my heart is always broken....

I had my surgery!

I had my surgery and the knee replacement went well. I have recovered nicely and will return to work soon. I followed the doctors orders and did the therapy and have done very well. I am glad I did the surgery. I just need to learn not to hobble because I have done it for so long. I don't have pain though! Each day I get better and better. I look forward to all of this just being a very long past memory. Thank goodness for great Doctors and wonderful care givers. My mom stayed with me during the week and my daughter on the weekends. I am so blessed to have had them for my recovery. I was spoiled and the company was wonderful! I am truly blessed!

I Think I am Ready...????

Well..finished my last appointment today and will have my surgery next Monday. I am anxious and ....okay scared...but I know that I will be in good hands and all will be okay. I will be off from work for 6 to 8 weeks. I just hope I will want to get back to work when it is time...LOL. I am fortunate though I was given the opportunity to work from home when I feel better. So...life is good and soon I will enjoy running the roads again and getting so much done!

Keep me in your prayers!

Two weeks away......

Two weeks from today I will be in surgery having my knee replaced. And tomorrow I go to the hospital to register and a class at the doctors office. As much as I thought I was okay with it, I am having serious anxiety. I have so much to do and so little time. I have never had major surgery before and I am very nervous. Okay...I am just plain afraid and scared. I know all will be fine, but I can't stop the little woman in my head going over and over things, scenarios and "stuff". I know for the first week all I will want to do is sleep. Never mind I am in the last 3 class I have to complete my degree. All are on line but I am worried about completing the work.....what would the world be if a woman didn't worry about others, things and just in general....LOL

Keep me in your prayers.

MRI

I had my MRI yesterday. My doctor is doing a new procedure where he takes measurements of my knee from the MRI and it is less time in OR...so that is a good thing. So one step down.

Step Two: Week after next is the class that tells me all about what I am going to have done and procedures to follow....and all the "stuff" for recovery.

Keep me in your prayers.

It's Official Now

I made the appointment with the orthopedic doctor and I went there on February 19th. He confirmed that I needed my knee replaced and on March 22, 2010 I will get my new warranty part! I have gone through so many emotional phases over the past few days. But I have made the decision to go ahead with the operation because my physical quality of life is horrible right now. I have a great group of friends who have offered to help, my mom and daughter are planning to be with me and my job is going to let me work from home when I feel I am able after surgery. Life couldn't be any better could it?

Will blog more about this later....but in the meantime....keep me in your prayers!

Snow - way too much!

Living in Virginia all of my life we just haven't haven't had that much snow in the areas I have lived. But this year has outdone itself! We have had significant snowfalls. There was one on Saturday and I loved seeing it come down but then I began to wonder just how I was going to get out. It was only 8 inches and by most peoples standards...that's not much. But when you don't' unusually have any or very little...I was worried. With my bad knee and back I just didn't know if I could do it. But then again, the angels of the neighborhood once again came out and cleaned my drive way. I was so grateful! So this morning I, along with all the other commuters, headed out to work in 21 degree weather and I hope that some of this stuff melts today. I had a hard time starting my car, my feet are still cold, and I slid making a turn onto the road that takes me to the train station. So this morning I am moving a little slower and just trying to get some organization and work done here at work. I think I am going to make a list for work and then for home.

I started my online class for finishing my Bachelors and I will do two more in about 6 weeks. Then I will be completely finished. These last two were added to the new course outline and I had to take them because I procrastinated and had to reapply for school so I fell under the catalog....this is going to teach me not to procrastinate anymore!

I did spend the weekend getting homework done, doing some housework and the rest knitting on projects I am trying to complete.

I have found my camera cable so when I take some pictures of the projects I am working on, I will post them.

Until another day....

Happpy New Year!

Thought this was a hoot....it was from the Lion Brand website newsletter..see the skein of yarn on the left of the sofa....I have used yarn for so many things!

Fifty Eight Years Ago.....

Today is my birthday...I am on the downhill slide to being a fabulous 60 year old....and guess what I am GREAT! LOL Body needs some work, but the sharp whited mind is all there! Who said getting older is awful....I am one great cougar (did I say that!) ......LOL

Oh my goodness ...it's almost time for Santa!

Well....I let time slip by again. So much has happened in the last few months....subtle things and decision time for me. Because of my procrastination, I had to reapply for college because I had been out 3 semesters. I did go for my last science class at the community college but that doesn't count for missing the 3 semesters at UMW....so I had to reapply, go into a new catalog and take two more classes! Yuck! So next semester I will be signed up for 3 online classes and probably be going crazy, but done! Graduation time in May!

I also have opted to have my knee surgery...knee replacement. I am tired of hurting and my quality of life going downhill each day. So I have pulled up my big girl britches and I am going to make myself better! Yes I am still knitting some but spinning my wheels on finishing projects. Once again this will one of my New Years resolutions...maybe one year I will accomplish it! Uh huh....sure....dream on ....hehehehe....what can I say I am a true optimist.

We had 20 inches of snow last Friday and Sat. For some of you....that's not much but for us who have very little or none most winters, this paralyzed the area. My wonderful neighbors dug my driveway out....I couldn't and was stuck in the house for 3 days! Not bad though....never dressed, no makeup and coffee all day was good to the last drop. Did I accomplish much...NO....but I did a great imitation of a slug! LOL

I wish all of you a very Merry Christmas... or to be politically correct Happy Holidays...but for me I wish to all a Very Merry and warmest Christmas with of lots of love, good cheer and happiness. May our new year be filled with lots of accomplishment, lots of yarn and fabric and most of all peace on earth!

Words for thought!

I came across a great saying today.....

"Our dilemma is that we hate change and love it at the same time; what we really want is for things to remain the same but get better." -- Sydney J. Harris

Isn't this pretty much how we all feel. I know I do. I hate things to change...I always get pulled in kicking and screaming but then I accept it. I do fall prey to nostaligia though. I am so sentimental...and at times I wonder why things have changed.

How about everyone.....any thoughts?

I am back....

I guess those who happen upon my blog from time to time have wondered about what has happened.....it could be laziness, busy or just tired of blogging. It has been all three. I was busy with work, then changed departments which was a blessing and then in September when I was away, someone broke into my house. I now live with an alarm (ugh!) and the tedious tasked of trying to remember what all they took. So many of my drawers I couldn't remember what I had in them. Chalk it up to the seamier side of life....criminals touch us one time or another. I am just grateful they didn't destroy my home.

I wish I had some things to show but once again I can't find my camera cord...I hope they didn't take that! I have my camera, but I need to find the cord. I did find this cute picture on LOL cats and I thought I would share!

I hope within the next few weeks I will have some pictures of some shawls I am working on. Until later....but not as long as before!

Awwwww

My son in laws brother was married this past weekend. On facebook my daughter posted pictures and this one just melted my heart. In the center of the picture is my 11 year old grandson dancing with his mom, my daughter.....she is so beautiful and he is such a grown up little man...

Memorial Day

I hate to say this but I am so looking forward to have a long weekend. I am just beat from work and school and trying to get my well water problems solved. I finally have water after a weekend without and after paying the plumbers....well....no new yarn and fabric for me for a while. Okay I will just cut back!

The weather is so beautiful that I just want to sit outside and soak up the sun. Imight just do that. I have no plans for the weekend....wasn't invited to any bar-b-ques which is just fine with me. I did go to the grocery yesterday and I am set for my stay-at-home weekend. I am so in the mood to sew.

To all those who are planning family or friend get-to-gethers, have a wonderful and safe time! Enjoy.....it will soon be so hot we will not be able to stand it!

We are getting out of work early....so happy holidays and be safe!

I passed!!!!!

I passed my Historical Geology class! Thank Goodness! I only have one more class to either CLEP or take and I will have my Bachelor's Degree. Don't know whether I will walk next year (I missed it this May) but I am going to throw myself one heck of a party! I feel so relieved about this class, no one has any idea! Yippeeee!