Sunday, February 13, 2011

Back to Work Tomorrow...

Seems like my weekends just fly by....they are never long enough. I just don't ever get what I planned for the weekend done......not enough catch up sleep, not enough time to get laundry done, and definitely not enough fun time. I haven't figured out if I am an incredibly poor organizer or I just plan for too much. So I will salvage as much as I can today and do what I can.

Sometimes I feel like I am wishing my life away....seems like this part of my life is never my own and is empty....I am sure the fact that Valentines Day is tomorrow is causing this blue feeling and sadness. Being alone is not a happy journey....it is a sad journey.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

LOVE...it's so hard to come by or trust

Have you even loved someone so much and you pray they one day they will realize it and the years pass and then it hits you one day.....you are living in a dream world and it just isn't' in the cards. Well....that is me.....and it's time to move on....I feel just a bit empty now and wondering why I would have done this to myself...I have gone out with others but wanted him....but it never happened so I am moving on....

I can't figure men out and I am sure they say the same about us. There is a few good men out there....well let me say there are a great many out there....but they seem to be taken...I seem to find the ones with no teeth, dirty or just well...let's just say their little head is always parked somewhere...

Heartache is hard to deal with....I have so much love to give, so many talents to offer and above all loyalty. I guess I feel that when God feels I am ready a good one will enter my life....but I have been waiting for 18 years since my divorce...sigh....I walk on....alone for now...but in my dreams I see another holding my hand.