Sunday, February 13, 2011

Back to Work Tomorrow...

Seems like my weekends just fly by....they are never long enough. I just don't ever get what I planned for the weekend done......not enough catch up sleep, not enough time to get laundry done, and definitely not enough fun time. I haven't figured out if I am an incredibly poor organizer or I just plan for too much. So I will salvage as much as I can today and do what I can.

Sometimes I feel like I am wishing my life away....seems like this part of my life is never my own and is empty....I am sure the fact that Valentines Day is tomorrow is causing this blue feeling and sadness. Being alone is not a happy is a sad journey.

Thursday, February 10, 2011's so hard to come by or trust

Have you even loved someone so much and you pray they one day they will realize it and the years pass and then it hits you one are living in a dream world and it just isn't' in the cards. Well....that is me.....and it's time to move on....I feel just a bit empty now and wondering why I would have done this to myself...I have gone out with others but wanted him....but it never happened so I am moving on....

I can't figure men out and I am sure they say the same about us. There is a few good men out there....well let me say there are a great many out there....but they seem to be taken...I seem to find the ones with no teeth, dirty or just well...let's just say their little head is always parked somewhere...

Heartache is hard to deal with....I have so much love to give, so many talents to offer and above all loyalty. I guess I feel that when God feels I am ready a good one will enter my life....but I have been waiting for 18 years since my divorce...sigh....I walk on....alone for now...but in my dreams I see another holding my hand.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Happy Birthday To Me!

Today is my birthday! Wow...I have hit the ripe old age of 59 but still feel like I am 20...okay it's the mind that feels like 20...the body feels like This is the first time in many years I have worked on my birthday. For some reason I decided not to take off. Not sure why but I didn't so here I sit at my work computer, doing exactly what I shouldn't be doing...a personal at this age I just feel bolder than I did years ago....

I had a wonderful was quiet. Just my mom, myself, my daughter, son in law and grandson....I enjoyed it this year more so than in the past. We had our big meal on Christmas eve and then when my daughter and her family left to see the other parents, mom and I had the day to ourselves and it was quiet and peaceful. We got to enjoy ourselves with lots of mom and daughter talk. Family is what the season is about. The good Lord gave us so much and not to take the time to sit back and enjoy life is such a sad commentary on how we live our lives. I hope this coming years brings love, laughter, happiness and peace to all and may God bless you and keep you in his arms as I pray he does for me also.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Saturday, December 04, 2010

I Love The Holidays!

Oh how I love the holidays. But on the other hand they make me sad because I am alone at home. Sometimes it is an effort to put up decorations alone. I miss having the family atmosphere I had years ago. But then I remember what this holiday is about. It is about our Lord Jesus and his birth. I believe in the beautiful Christmas story and the miracles around the wondrous story.....God's grace is so giving and each year I pray we all can love him as much as he loves us. Through all our hustle and bustle I hope each and everyone takes the time to look at your family and friends and be so grateful they are in your life and realize that God put them their for you. Hug them and tell them how much you care. This is my special Christmas wish this year for each and everyone. Merry Christmas through out the month and may all year bring us all joy!

Monday, November 01, 2010

Oh My! Where have the last Two Months gone????

In August I started thinking about fun things for the holidays. My plan was to start working each day on something to accomplish all my mind wanted....well...two months later and I still haven't gotten my ideas out of my head to my hands to start the process...once again....I am behind....

You would think I would learn by my past procrastination and get a jump on things...No...I let them languish in my head like sugar plum fairies and there they stay until I forget about them. So the following year I think up all new ideas and they never leave my head either....I mean so well...what is it they say...the road to Hell is paved with good intentions...Oh I have paved mine to the doorstep!!!!! is just Nov. 1st...maybe I can pull it together and at least get some of my great ideas done! I will try very hard.

Monday, October 04, 2010

Where I Store My Crowns

Since I am the oldest in the family of two other brothers, I have always teased them and told them I was wants are the first to be pleased...(LOL) so when I saw this. I just had to put it on my blog. I found it on another friends blog. (Stop over it is a beautiful blog about our furry little children and friends.)
I am sure my brothers and their kids would agree "Aunt Iva thinks she deserves these. LOL!!!! NOT!
Sometimes I just don't know which one to wear?

Saturday, October 02, 2010

Once again...Where has the time gone....?

I remember my mother telling us kids time goes by so fast. Of course being a youngster we thought it never went fast enough. Now I completely understand what she meant. Here it is almost the holidays and have I finished much of my knitting projects that I started last year....NOT. But I will keep plugging along. Not much happening other than work and trying to clean the house. Cleaning is something I detest...and once I get things sorted out I am hiring a cleaning person. I am thinking about trading in my car for a new one. I wasn't going to but where that young girl hit my car several years ago..I am having some issues where they didn't fix it properly...something that wouldn't have shown up until later. Still makes me made. A parent giving a 16 year old a brand new car and she was so irresponsible. She backed into my car full force and didn't hit the brake until too late. Her foot slipped off the pedal because it had been raining and her feet were wet. So...I am considering a new vehicle. Will have to really think about it.