Saturday, July 24, 2010

It's Too Hot!

I don't know how others feel about our hot weather here on the East but I can't stand it! I have always lived in the basic area within a 50 mile radius....but I still don't tolerate the heat well. It's the humidity that is awful...okay hot is hot....not matter with humidity or not. All I want to do is lay in front of the fan and turn down the air conditioning until icicles form...okay not that much but I am dying with the heat......yucky.....yucky!

On a happier note I just finished a scarf for a swap friend. I need to get her package off next week. It will travel to Italy. She sent my package already and I am behind. Well not really behind. We have until the end of the month, I am still okay.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Quilting ....

Now that I have finished my degree I am getting out the sewing machine and going through my fabrics and working on one of my favorite hobbies. I love to quilt. I have not done much of it for so many years because it took so much time. Quilts are much bigger projects than my sock knitting. So...I have picked the fabrics for a quilt and today I am pre-washing them and cutting out the quilt later today. It was so much fun going through the fabrics and picking out what would work together...this is so restful for me. I go to my happy place with my fabrics and yarn. I could sit in the middle of them and never move .....just touching and matching and all that love fibers...smelling them and rubbing them on your face! Admit all do I am off to launder my fabrics and will knit while I wait for them to wash....oh what a happy day I have created for myself.....picture me with a smile on my face with scissors in my hand...ahhhhhh

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

Oh No...I sounded so desparate.....

The other day I sounded so awful in my blog...I really was down. My situation does exist but no I don't sit around grieving over it. Just makes me sad at times.

The heat is unbearable for the last two days. Will head home in a few minutes and I am not going out after I get home. I don't do well with the heat and feel ill at times with it and the humidity. You can bundle up and get warm when it is cold, but you can't take enough clothes off when you are hot! This too shall pass I am sure!

Monday, July 05, 2010's not enough

I sit and worry and wonder....I can't seem to get things done. I want a relationship with someone that I have fallen so deeply in love with and doesn't seem to happen. I pray daily for him to ask me out...or just come visit. I have invited and he always has an excuse. Am I so naive that I don't see that he likes me but not to date. I am lonely and I hate this lonely feeling. I wonder on a daily basis how so many of my friends go through divorces and within a very short period of time they either have a relationship or are married again......and here I sit alone. I have encouraged them and I have sat and listened to their endless unhappy stories. Then I experience the abandonment of their friendship because they are too busy with their "new Love"....I live in a sadness that I can't even describe. When will my turn come? Why are my prayers not answered? I only want to find love and give love...and yet my heart is always broken....